I'm not new to the whole blogging concept. A couple of years ago, I kept a blog.....a very detailed and personal blog. It was my outlet; a place for my rants and raves, my hopes and dreams, and my 'wins' and my 'epic fails'. I shared my days; both good and bad, my stories; funny and sad, and remarkably.....my feelings and emotions. It was me; uncensored, rough around the edges, the good, the bad and the ugly. There was only one little thing....it was completely and utterly private and I never shared it with anyone. The thought of people I actually knew, whether it be my close friends, family or merely acquaintances seeing the real, un-fiiltered and un-edited me, was needless to say, terrifying. Even to this day, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about inviting people into a part of my life that few have seen.
If you know me well......scratch that! If you know me at all, you know I am not "one with my emotions." I am all too guilty of hiding behind a fake smile when something is bugging me. I am used to being the listener, the advice-giver, the go-to-girl, the funny one that beats you to "that's what she said" jokes, and of course, the girl that is always smiling. The latter has been my chosen path, it's what I am comfortable with and I rarely stray from it. It is, by no means, my intent to be secretive or withholding; I'm more of a private person, it's just the way I'm wired.
At this point in my life, however, I think it's time I started sharing a little more of me......beyond the smile. With a pending move, one chapter of my life is coming to an end and another chapter is beginning and I am sure there will be plenty of stories to tell along the way. Will every post be filled with raw emotion? I highly doubt it. I am who I am; and that's the girl who is smiling a genuine smile....well, at least 93.349573% of the time, and don't think for a second I made that statistic up! As for drama, well, you can leave that, and your shoes at the door, because you won't find it here. I am sure that the majority of my postings will be my everyday stories and encounters with a side of satire, but don't be surprised if you see some never-before-seen-Jenille mixed in here and there. I promise to go with the flow and keep it real, no sugar coating...because life isn't always sweet.
Jenille, my darling granddaughter; Have you ever thought of becoming a writer? The above is well written. And I can soooo identify with some of what you said. I don't know if I would have the courage to share un-edited my thoughts, feelings and emotions with anyone who would read it. But I applaud you, if you are able to do it. I believe being real is honest and refreshing. Not many of us feel really free to be who we are. I love you and am proud of you no matter what. Nothing you could do or say would ever change that. Love, Grandma
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